No need for flowery words.

I will miss you.
Everyday.
Everyday when Im gone.
Thank you for being my friend.
Thank you for making me laugh.
For sharing your food.
For laughing at my stupid jokes.
For laughing at my face.
For laughing with me.
I will miss you.
Everyday when Im gone.
I love you.
I will always love you.
You always make me smile.
You always make me laugh.
Thank you for being there when I needed you.
Thank you for listening.
Im sorry if im leaving.
I want to stay.
I dont want to go.
I love you so much.
I wish we had more time.
I wish we can go back.
Im going to miss you so much.
Im sorry if we had no time.
Im sorry if I didnt visit you that day.
Even if I'll be miles away Ill still be the same.
Ill be the Nica you had.
The same Nica who plays the harmonica.
The Nica that writes haikus.
The Nica who acts stupid in front of class.
The Nica you had.
Ill be the Nica you had.
You mean so much to me.
Thank you for telling me you believed in me.
Thank you for letting me sleep over.
For bringing me home when I had no ride.
For buying me a movie ticket.
For sharing your pen.
I love you.
We dreamed together.
Together we will make those dreams come true.
Thank you holding my hand when I was afraid.
You never gave up on me.
I will never give up on you.
You reminded me that there is hope.
Thank you.
I wish it was like this everyday.
I wish we can step on the same ground everyday like before.
I wont leave you.
Because I know you wont leave me.
You taught me so much.
Thank you for reminding me of the good.
I will remember our tears.
Our trips.
Our talks.
Our laughs.
I cant believe its time.
Time for me to leave.
I will remember you.
I will remember us.
What we were.
What we are.
And what we will be.
The world needs people like you.
Thank you.
I love you.
I will miss you.
This is not a goodbye.
This is not a see you later.
This is just me telling you that I love you.
You are my angel.
You kept me smiling.
I will not leave you.
The same way you did not leave me.
Thank you for hugging me.
Thank you for not being afraid.
Thank you for taking me in when I had nothing.
You helped me grow.
Im so happy I met you.
God is so smart he put us together.
I will be back.
Remember me.


I love you.

Ode to Ange

Here is an excerpt of a masterpiece my friend Ange and I made back in 2005. It’s a ym conversation turned into a dramatic script. It’s about two lovers who are experiencing problems with their long distance relationship. This was made during the time Ange was in the US for the summer while I was here in Manila. We couldn’t help but goof around even if we were miles apart.

I play the role of Brian and Ange plays the role of Grace. This entire thing is PURE improvisation and guys, this is fiction. Don’t get any ideas okay? Its a long read. Enjoy.

Brian and Grace
by Nica and Ange

Brian signs in
Nica : Grace, you there?
Nica : Why are u awake pa? Isn’t it almost 5 in the morning there?
angecouture: because...
Nica : dont talk na
angecouture: why not? I miss u
Nica : i miss u too
angecouture: brian, do you love me?
Nica : i love you grace
angecouture: ur so sweet naman
Nica : grace, sleep na
angecouture: no i dont want to. can we just talk? please? this is our only time together. i told you it was going to be hard to maintain a long distance relationship
angecouture: if only you went nalang to college here
Nica : grace
angecouture: what nanaman?
Nica : we've already discussed this. dont go there. im also tired
angecouture: i know but parang your not cooperating. I mean, we hardly ever speak anymore
Nica : i try my very best to keep in touch with u
angecouture: what kind of a relationship is that?
Nica : but what is it with you?
angecouture: YOU TRY YOUR VERY BEST?
angecouture: your best being like 10 minutes a day?!
Nica : WELL IF YOU JUST STOP CHANGING YOUR EMAIL THEN MAYBE U'LL GET ALL MY MESSAGES!!!!!!!!!!!!
angecouture: hello, im still up and its 5 am just so i can at least communicate with you
angecouture: changing my email? what is that supposed to mean
Nica : im sorry. im tired. didnt i just tell u that?
angecouture: yes you did
angecouture: so am i
Nica : SO WHY DONT U SLEEP THEN?
angecouture: are you sure you're not going around picking up other girls there ha
Nica : you dont know how to listen
angecouture: ah ganun so IM THE BAD LISTENER?
Nica : are you in this pms state all u girls love to talk about? cause your really pissing me off right now.
angecouture: why did marivic say that you were with a girl last night at bizu? ha?
Nica : i think its better if your sleeping
angecouture: NO I WANT TO STRAIGHTEN THNGS OUT
Nica : fine. that girl?
Nica : marivic is just my neighbor and that girl I was with in bizu was my cousin laura. you’ve met her.
angecouture: damn you. you have to at least say these things so i dont go around worrying
angecouture: i was calling all of your friends yesterdayasking them if you were dating again if you want to break up with me and start seeing other girls, be my guest your loss, NOT MINE
Nica : its your loss
angecouture: what?
Nica : did u know that Im a model now? i guess not
angecouture: your calling it MY loss without you?
angecouture: you’re what? uou never told me
Nica : THATS BECAUSE YOUR NEVER THERE TO ANSWER MY EMAILS!
angecouture: I ANSWER UR EMAILS DAMNIT
Nica : EXCUSES EXCUSES
angecouture: i sacrificed my midterms to reply to that damn email of yours about your dog getting sick
angecouture: so DO NOT COMPLAIN ABOUT ME NOT REPLYING. dont you know how hard this is? NYU is NOTHING compared to Ateneo. you guys have it easier there. your dad has mang manuel drive you to school everyday
Nica : are u saying that my education is not worthy of your praise? is that it?
angecouture: laundry, cleaning up the apartment
Nica : that NYU is much better?
angecouture: I didnt say that. I just said that you have it easier there
Nica : is that why u kept on persuading me to go to NYU with you because you think Ateneo is NOTHING?
angecouture: I never said that. youre making up things again
Nica : IT DOESNT MATTER IF U SAID IT OR NOT!
angecouture: go ahead and assume all you want. IM JUST TRYING TO SAY THAT BACK HOME, YOU HAVE AN EASIER TIME GOING ABOUT COLLEGE.
Nica : who here has been trying to hit it with that bartender?
Nica : who? tell me who?
angecouture: i wasnt hitting on him, i had a drop of martini on my top. so he just wiped it off. nothing more
angecouture: DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO BALANCE EVERYTHING?
Nica : so is this all about balancing? ganun ba?!
angecouture: brian lopez..listen to me, youre going to be a father
Nica : i am not
angecouture: ive never slept with anyone else. LISTEN ALRIGHT. im trying to break the news to you
Nica : IM BRAKING UP WITH U.
angecouture: you're doing what?
Nica : SPENDING 3 YEARS WITH U WAS USELESS
angecouture: no, NOT AFTER ALL THIS. FINE THEN. but this kid is yours no matter what
angecouture: if you dont, ill raise it alone but DONT YOU COME CRAWLING BACK ASKING FOR A PART IN HIS OR HER LIFE
Nica : i never wanted a kid grace.
angecouture: YOU THINK I DID? i didnt want this!!!!! I SWEAR, IF YOU TURN UR BACK ON THIS KIDS LIFE, ULL BE DAMNED FOREVER AND I WILL MAKE SURE OF IT. this kid is yours NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO
Nica : youre so dumb talaga
angecouture: i hate you Brian
angecouture: you know what i thought? i thought i was going to finish college and then go back there and start a life with you but life did not ask me what i thought or what i wanted
Nica : grace. let me talk. ang dami mong daldal eh.
angecouture: go ahead and try to redeem yourself
Nica : grace, I love you. but as u can see we obviously cant work things out. I would try my damn to email u... and I do email u, but u never get them. You always blame everything on me. I also dont know wat it is with u. palagi ka na lang hindi nagpapakita.
angecouture: that your life in luxury will forever change all because of ONE NIGHT?
Nica : I already prepared the adoption papers. whats your fax?
angecouture: I AM NOT GIVING AWAY THIS CHILD
angecouture: over my dead body brian!!!!!
angecouture: fine ill raise it alone, ill drop out and work 3 jobs. i do not care unlike you of course, its so hard to let go off your pampered life
angecouture: living on mommy and daddys walle and not learning how to do anything. thats the brian ive always known. wala ka ng alam sa tunay na mundo
Nica : im migrating to england this summer
angecouture: ang sama mo talaga brian. WALA KANG KONSENSYA. hindi ka marunong magisip ng ibang tao. PURO IKAW NALANG. IKAW IKAW IKAW
Nica : say what you want.
angecouture: noong nagkatransplant yung daddy mo, ano ang ginawa mo? nagpunta sa singapore!
Nica : may free ticket eh! sayang! what did you expect me to do?
angecouture: HINDI KA MARUNONG MAGMAHAL
Nica : totoo. pero minahal kita grace. but u ignored my love for you
angecouture: you swept me off my feet with your charm and I am not going back in your arms
Nica : NOW GO TO SLEEP!
angecouture: I ignored your love?
Nica : yes u ignored it
angecouture: ako pa talaga ha
Nica : i took you out on dates on my yacht, on my pent house
angecouture: in other words, YOU BOUGHT ME
Nica : to tagaytay, subic, palawan, sorsogon, singapore and australia
angecouture: i was stupid enough to think that you really loved me
Nica : ALL U DID WAS SPEND MY MONEY.
angecouture: wala akong interes sa pera mo brian! kahit minsan, hindi ko pinansin ang mga kotse mo
Nica : a talaga? edi bakit...
angecouture: brian i dont want to talk about this
Nica : palagi kang humihingi ng pera saakin?
angecouture: brian, i only asked for money once okay?
Nica: lets not go there anymore. Grace, i have to go.
Brian signs off
angecouture: brian...brian!!! where the hell are you? BRIAN? Iniwanan mo nanaman ako!

I hope that wasn't too dramatic. Haha.

Bakit ba?

I have exactly 15 days left here in Manila.
I don't know how I'm gonna spend it.
I feel so sad.
Sometimes I feel like no one's gonna miss me when I'm gone.
Sometimes.
I thought this would be easier.
15 days.
Before you know it, it's see you later.
Maybe even a goodbye.
I don't know.
We'll see.
We'll see in 15 days.

p.s. Its my time of the month today. As you can tell, I'm very emotional.

Letter from VeroNICA Vindelle

I am in the process of fixing my room right now. Everything is everywhere. So many things are scattered all over my floor. I'm trying to put everything in one box. [You see, my brother is taking over my room when I leave for college thats why all of my things have to be packed up. boohoo.]

In the middle of all the mess, I came across my letters portfolio. It's where I keep all the letters I recieve from before before.

But before I continue I just want to make a clear point:
You see guys, when I was a kid, I absolutely LOVED Harry Potter. I loved it so much that I would day dream I was part of the novel. I was so in love with the whole concept of Hogwarts and magic. Ikat and I shared this Harry Potter high back in 5th grade. We even made our own versions of the novel and inlcluded ourselves in it. My characters name was VernoNICA Vindelle. HAHAHAHAHA!!!

Okay, now GOING BACK.

I wrote a letter to J.K Rowling. Yes I did. When I was 10. That was in grade 5 you see. You better believe me haha! And I found a copy of my letter in my portfolio. I was so excited to read it. Imagine! After 7 years I get to read it! Oh it was classic. Here's what I wrote to her:

Aug 5 2001

Dear JK Rowling,

Greetings!

My name is Nicollette Constante. I am a fifth grader in Assumption College SLV, Philippines. I admire your very famous book Harry Potter. Harry Potter is a very nice story but some people are afraid to read it. They say its because it is all about witchcraft. Why did you write stories about witchcraft anyway? They say you are very bad but I dont believe that. I think you are a good author for such a famous book.

I have a project to pass in school. I would like to ask some questions about you and about the story Harry Potter.
1. What inspired you to write the story Harry Potter?
2. Is it hard to write sucha thick book and why?
3. How does it feel to be a famous author?
4. What inspired you for the names of the characters?

Thank you, for having the time to read my letter. If possible, can you please reply as soon as you can?

Sincerely,

Nicollette Constante

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

And for the record, SHE WROTE BACK! I can show you the letter in person if you want. It came complete with the UK stamp with the queens face on it. But her signature was computer generated. Pfft. But its okay since she wrote back! Maybe I'll write to her again. Maybe.

My second question was kinda really awkward. I dont understand why I had to ask 'why.' The why question doesnt make any sense. Plus I dont even remember writing to her for a project. Maybe it was because I wanted to steal her secrets as an award winning author. HAHA. But really, I think thats why I asked those questions. What was I thinking?

The insane Harry Potter fan,
Nica

What I Wrote a Year Ago Still Makes Sense to Me Now

My friend, Paula, is a special person in life. The reason being is because she is one of the most amusing creatures to ever walk on this planet. She is an animal. Back in my junior year in high school I vowed to her that I will write a short novel about her and her adventures as a horse. Because that is what she is. An animal. A horse.

I found the piece of paper of where I wrote the beginning my beautiful and aspiring novel. Here is an excerpt of it all:

It was a warm afternoon when Paula laid awake on top of her bed. She woke up from a long nap when a beam of sunlight shone through the glass window and struck her face. Warm sweat slowly dripped on the right side of her cheek. She let out a soft growl. Her nap couldn't be over. It couldn't. She wanted to sleep some more. Nap time was her favorite time of the day and she felt that this nap time could last forever. Forever.

BAM! BAM! BAM!

"Paula! Wake up! I have a surprise for you!"

Paula's eyes widened. It was her mother. She came in her bedroom carrying bags full of new toys. It was what every 8 year old could wish for. She jumped out of the bed and quickly ransacked the bags to find out if her mom got her what she wanted.

"What did you get me Mama?"

The piece of paper on which the story was written also included the characters. Here is the list:

Arie Wilson - Brown horse
Ikat Gallardo - Black horse
Micho Francisco - White horse
Nica [myself] - The mysterious sorcerer
Loupo Poblete - The deer

I don't know how I came up with these things. If you would like to be part of the story, let me know. I made this a LONNGGGG time ago. God knows what I was on when I wrote it.

As for Paula, I hope you liked it. Maybe I should add a man horse. Since the plot of your current life has a man creature crawling into it. HO HUMMMM.....

peace ya'll
Nica